My amazing grandmother

My dear amazing grandmother. She is the strongest person I ever knew with the best attitude you could obtain. She is noble and humble with an angel heart who is always optimistic and generous to all. I will respect your decisions and remember your wise words. Simple but wise words. You set an example for all.

Mi a blog ertelme?

Az ilyesfajta blog ertelme mint ez amibe irogatjuk a kusza gondolatainkat erthetetlen bekezdeseknek tunhet masok szamara. nem masoknak irodik na. 10 eve kezdodtek a bejegyzesek es a mai napig visszaolvasom oket. Probalom szamszerusiteni menyit fejlodott a helyesirasom. pozitiv vagy negativ iranyba. megfelelo alahuzando. azt is probalom elemezni hogy valtozott a kommunikacios keszsegem de mivel tipikus kritikus ember vagyok azert meg nem vagyok kozel sem az elegedettsegi lepcso also fokaihoz.


Tokmindegy amugy hogy van-e onbizalmunk, csak azt kell mutatni masoknak hogy persze hogy van. manapsag mindent el kell adni, leginkabb a szart. es hat sokat nagyon jol nyomjak, szoval ha meg az idiotaknak is megy akkor nekem is. Csak az orok jeg es ho fogsagaban az ember termeszete elkezd a compliant fele valtozni. Marmint hogy itt minden szabalyt betartunk, mert akkor is meglesz mindenunk, akkor sem less kevesebb sikerunk. En mar nem tudok szinesiteni, felturbozni...azt mondom ami van. Tiszta unalmas de tobbe kevesbe mukodik. Par embernek nem tetszett szal azok pl nem beszelnek velem de hat knszl. (knszl lasd kesobb, ez egy szalonkepes blog kerem szepen).


Visszaterve a blog ertelme, ez egy onismereti eszkoz. Olyan mint amikor kis idiota tinidzser voltam es arrol irtam hogy mennyire idegesitett amikor valakinek uj ruhaja lett a gimiben. Csak most arrol irok h mennyire idegesit hogy az emberek kepen mas van mint a fejukben. De ez a vilag rendje, felesleges probalni megerteni....

how it all started

When you feel like you are in the best place with the best team, doing the best work. And suddenly everything turns upside down. I was happily sitting and arranging the week 100 shipments at Siemens and hopping all over the building as I was working for 3 departments. everyone knew my name...also because probably I was the only foreigner in the building who could speak Finnish. My Estonian friend dropped me a message that Stora Enso is looking for an assistant in the sustainability team. My response was: "come on" I just graduated with almost 2 years of experience in a huge company...why should I be an assistant again. But sometime you need to take a step back to reach the next level. God knows why. I happily (still happily) rephrased my CV and handed in but didn't hear anything still December. So I went on holiday with my first interview completed and noted that I am overqualified for the position. But at least the interviewers were nice.


Strangely I got an email that I should revisit their head office again to meet the EVP. I have never heard that title before so I googled the guy and it seemed to me that he is quite high level so I started to be scared. On the interview day it took me 1.5h to complete the 40min trip that also resulted in doing a sprint in the last 1km. So arriving soaked hot-n-cold they smiled at me and asked to start the hearing. The EVP guy was nice, his first question was why are you here? you are overqualified.
:D thank god actually you invited me! His sarcastic intelligent humor got me immediately. I didn't feel anymore that we are at an interview. It was just a casual talk about my life. Very interesting questions and he gave me the impression immediately that he wants me.


So I stepped out of the building with a huge smile and just noted to myself that I am going to work in this place soon. When he called me to tell that I can start next month and if I commit to his team he will help me to build my career I could not stop crying. I was the happiest person in my life and I will never forget that moment. And it was too late for Siemens to offer me a full-time permanent job anymore.


It has been two years since I am in SE. with the best boss and best small boss. I know the people I need to know and I work in an amazing place. But I learnt. My career is in my hands.
Now only need to figure out how to make the most out of this great opportunity.

elorelepes.

amikor nagy a vagyakozas valahova mert innen ebbol a tavolsagbol tokeletesnek tunik, a megszepitett emlekekkel melyek feledtetik a szomorusagot, bosszusagot, duhot, akkor nem szabad hirtelen donteseket hozni es elfeledni hogy idovel minden szep lesz es hanyszor akartam lezarni es kilepni abbol az eletbol. minden egyes perceben mert semmi sem valtozott es csak hiabavalo veszekedesekrol szoltak a napok. a megnemertett ember. az. azt nehez megerteni, es lehet hogy azert van mert en nem vagyok a megfelelo ertelmi szinten vagy mert bizonyos kommunikacios kepessegek hianyoznak.
Jol mondta Janos. ne lepj vissza, ne nezz hatra, ami egyszer nem mukodott az nem fog mukodni kesobb sem.

Lehet hogy kisirtam magam? marmint eleget sirtam egy nap alatt? pedig ugy nez ki hogy Apacsot soha tobbe nem fogom latni. ne vegyel kutyat soha senkivel kozosen. aranyszabaly.

hosszutavon pedig gondolj arra a csodalatos jora ami korulvesz es amivel megaldottak. Igen, hogy vegre felvettek egy nagy ceghez gyakornoknak es azt fogom csinalni nekik amit tanultam. kesz csoda! >)